Depression & OCD

I have mild depression and the question of finding the meaning of life constantly looms inside my head. I also have some peculiar problems that only occur at night. I feel I have a second “conscious” in my head that would tell me what to do, which could be a sign of OCD as I have to constantly wash my hands or turn on and off the lights. I also feel even more depressed and lonely at night than in the daytime for some reason. Do I just make new friends?

I think I am depressed

I think I am depressed. I have never been diagnosed by a doctor. I am not on any medication. I don’t have any allergies that I am aware of. I don’t have any defining point that caused the depression. I don’t cut myself or think about suicide. I’m not really sure what I feel. I don’t really feel anything. When I think logically about my situation, I think I am depressed, but I don’t feel depressed. Do these seem like symptoms of clinical depression? What tips do you have to deal with this?